It’s now January 2007…
Since my SOS, I’ve alternatively believed that the visions of the Future I saw were only fiction, or that the Future had been changed for the better, and that soon someone would come to wake me up entirely to the truth, that some think is better that I don’t know of. I’ve always been very explicit to the fact that I want to be woken up. I’ve been screaming it out for years in my apartment… Even if the truth can be hard to bare. I need it because it is torture to keep wondering and speculating about what MAY OR MAY NOT BE. My only fear is that my oppressors only wish to reveal this Truth to me at the cost of subjecting me to extreme physical torture… Very extreme… I often still fear that the tortures I saw in a vision could still happen. Since my last post I have had additional visions to complete what I originally saw… The latest one is truly atrocious… At one point in this "Future" I live stuck on some pole, limb-less, eye-less, tongue-less, noseless, I think my hearing is also pretty bad because they’ve been torturing me with extremely loud music, I have also lost my vocal cords and I live without a lower jaw… Then because they’re sick of shoving down "food" with their fingers probably something nasty like shit or god knows what else, they later add a funnel, which is then replaced by a beaky jaw look alike thermoplastic thing… And I fear that because I may have (re)discovered the secret to eternal youth… So this torture could quite possibly go on for ever… So once again I urge you to try and help me… E-mail me at this address :
astrid.constant@yahoo.fr (by the way I’ve changed e-mail address because of some sabotage with my last internet provider… The new service provider also seems to be having "problems" with my connection…) you can also post a comment… If you have any information, even just something like confirming things to me, and helping me know what’s going on else where in the world… I think that there has been some kind of censuring of the Presse, to keep me in a bubble about what’s going on. So if you could some how help confirm some of my suspicions, please if possible more than just words… Or for example an exact internet address where I can get more info… In case you don’t know, we are highly dependable on search engines, and each country has it’s own private directory (even within the same search engine brand), here in France (or anywhere I go) I can’t ever find anything important through any of them… Please help me get the info I need… Thank you in advance…
Furthermore, I would like to get in to more depth about the conspiracy that I fear has built up around me… For some time now I have been under the impression that several people have tried to impersonate me. Claim they are me : Astrid Constant, born 29 july 1979 4 :00 AM Tegucigalpa HONDURAS. The first to impersonate me was a girl (possibly a transvestite) that had been surgically altered to look like me. I believe her to be originally of Swedish origin. She was then replaced by a french girl called Mathilde Musset: A girl that went to my Graphic Design school (intuit Lab) here in Paris. We are approximately the same built but have very different facial features, namingly the shape of our jaws. During spring 2004, I started to believe there was a renewed effort from the COPS (FBI) to stop the conspiracy that had built up around me. Around then a new impersonator had replaced Mathilde : the singer of Evanescence : amy lee, I have for a long time been almost 100% sure that her real name is dawnette knight, but I may be wrong, things can be very confusing at times… Anyway it has been my fear that she has been chosen as a new person to impersonate me… Others may have followed but because she is one of the ones I
HATE the most, that was the reason was chosen to be one of the most important ones... I once said she embodied everything I hated in Women (but what the fools down stairs didn't realize is that there are actually certain types of women I hate even more... I hate myself for not having been more explicit, because before I knew it, just because of that comment she had become their leader... (My reasons for hating her are exhaustive, but I do not wish to go into much depth about them, at least not now… But believe me, my HATE for her is EXTREME, to the extent of not wanting to breath the same air and that's still putting it lightly…). By the way, I am aware that some people have been told that I am her... Also something that enrages me to the point of wanting to shred to pieces the people that the people responsible for this fraud... (actually something much worse, because they deserve a much longer lasting agony: like the one I might have to live because of their lies... Of course only in my dreams... I do still have the right to dream/fantasize... Right?! Well otherwise... If you want to know the truth about dawnette... I guess the description about me, says it all, or mostly... They've also been using this technique here on the inside to fool the Satanic people... Just changing one main detail: my Nature...
Another reason she has been given special attention, is as an extra little torture towards me, I can not stand the injustice of letting such a worthless, not even fit to be called a woman of a whore, be me. Or even a star for that matter… I have for a long time now intended to destroy what I call fraudulent crap commercial music… Recently they’ve disguised this crap as more artistically admirable music… I find it unfair that people with a whole bunch of "help" end up becoming bigger stars than the ones with more artistic integrity, or those who are able to do it on their own… Everything can be fabricated. In some cases, the face, the body, the personality, the image, the look, and let’s not forget the Art itself (writing and composing)… Some of them are even barely singers. With modern technology and a little
Voodoo/Magic, even a worthless voice can seem worth praising… It really is torture to me to see this injustice continually perpetrated in the media… When will we ever have real stars again ??? When will the music industry start being fair again… If this goes on the way they plan it… It will never happen… The world will go on praising the "fraud stars"… And dawnette knight is one of them… She is one of the most worthless ones… And has received help for every aspect there is to seeming as an outstanding "Artist"… By the way… I think it’s still a failure… Still Pop crap… Some kind of luke warm formated Rock… Also… I never liked her, and have HATED her since March 2004… She's a complete Psychopath with a massive
inferiority complex coupled with a massive
superiority complex, and is obsessed about anything concerning me, not only does she want to be the one who gets to impersonate me, but also wants to be like me, wants anything I want, becomes interested in anything I'm interested in... She's some Freak Copycat... And is obsessed about being refined... being High Society... "A Pretty Woman"... And remember she is a patchwork of the various "CRAFTSMEN" that have fabricated her, so don't ever think that most of what you see/feel is the True her... Beware of her and any other of these "fraud stars" who can’t do anything on their own except hate, envy and participate in destroying people like me… Especially me… They will basically do Anything, I mean ANYTHING for money, for satanic/malice points and or for power, or even just for fame or "glory" as they call it… And in some cases, even do anything just to be important/special... But especially : will do anything to be ME (get to steal my identity). That or at least find some kind of way of being "my friend", or being one of my impersonator's friends… They are desperate to be near me at all times… They stalk and harass me and live in the adjacent apartments of my Paris "home" (or where ever I move travel to). So believe me I HATE them. By the way, I would just like to inform/remind you that none of my impersonators have achieved their notorieties on their own… They are helped by a large group of people, and trust me, on their own, most are utterly and completely
WORTHLESS… Unless you count stinking up the world with flaws is a virtue… It’s ironic how the more worthless they are the more attention they get… Other then them, the people I HATE the most in this conspiracy, are the brains… It is my belief that some of them also already share the lime light with these worthless impersonators but others still remain in the shadows, or can be seen on other stages of the world… Beware of how things seem on the surface, these "wise guys" tend to be very good at pretending to be the "nice guys"… They take advantage of the naive and helpless… Brainwash is one of their favorite games…
I also sometimes fear that the world thinks the true me died some time in 2004. I am not dead. I wish I could prove this to you, but the effectiveness of words is unfortunately limited and insufficient… Maybe trusting the COPS would be enough ? But you might end up being as "Stupid" as me… But theoretically you can still trust some of them… Right ? But which ones is now the real question... Otherwise, I’ve heard I’ve been broadcasted on the net or some strange obscure TV channel… So somewhere you can see the real Astrid Constant, but probably "identified" under some other name. And other than the picture in the "About Me" section of my blogs, there’s also a picture of my
French ID that can be found on
my portfolio (click hyperlink). Otherwise you can also find my picture in year books from one of the high schools I went to, it’s called SSHL, it’s in Sigtuna (Sweden), I attended from autumn 95 to spring 98. I was in the IB (International Baccalaureate) section. And if you could see one of these, you would notice that the person on the pictures with my name, looks like the person on my
French ID or the picture in the "About Me" section of my blogs.
Otherwise another detail worth mentioning, elements which people might find important… Is that since summer 2000 I have started getting FLASHBACKS, of events I had forgotten because they were lived under the influence of an Amnesiatic drug I call
Amna. Since then I believe the conspiracy against me has escalated to a now international level... I ON and OFF believe in the veracity of these FLASHBACKS that my shrink continue to justify as symptoms of Paranoid Schizophrenia and Bi-Polarity.
Since June 2002 I have been expecting (and wanting) for someone to come and wake me up to reality: confirming that my FLASHBACKS are not my imagination but true events that occurred in the past... The idea of knowing that I'm not crazy, is reasuring to me... Even if the events are hard horrible... Anyways, not long after I believe I was asked by cops (under
Amna) to participate in a mission to help stop "a big bad organization that had perpetrated heinous crimes for far too long..." And because the next day things were back to usual, back to being a schizophrenic I was unaware of the mission... Since then I have had various versions as to what has been happening on the back stage of my life… One version is that the cops that were involved in this mission ended up betraying their vows for justice. Either through black mail or just plain simple hunger for power and money which the instigators of this conspiracy "promise" to deliver… This being the main cause as to the supposed failure of the mission, that would result in the extreme tortures present in my recent visions. Hopefully this is not the case… Well, at leas not entirely... Sometimes I think that the mission has failed but that they have just decided to keep me here in my illusions to torture me in a different way, or because they have now also realized that I am more than just a crystal ball that can see the future... You probably think that's nonsense since doing this effort to reach out for help, may also put my life at risk as it would draw undesired attention... But as you may have noticed I have been purposefully vague as to who the "wise guys" are... this way i am hopefully still safe from experiencing what I saw in my visions... Also, although qvery limited, since I am very productive in my "home", especially when it comes to ideas... by keeping me here, they get to profit from continuing to steal the products of my thoughts... And they still torture me with their presences and various forms of
Voodoo/Maggic tricks... And... Maybe sometimes manage to get me under
Amna ever so often, and do some more physical and mental torture... Just haven't gotten any FLASHES of those yet...
NB: If these visions were to come true, this would also mean that the future of the free world would be completely dependent of these "wise guys" who by the failure of the mission would end up even more powerful than they have ever been... On one of the several
Amna episodes an account in my name was opened, and since then the wealth on it has accumulated… A lot of the wealth was accumulated by blackmail, at least in the start, but since then it has mostly come from court lawsuits… It isn't all grouped up under one multinational name but is piece apart under several different names, but all legally owned to my name !!! Where this account is... I have no idea... I've already checked two banks (Credit Lyonnais, and HSBC... the two ones that seemed the most likely ones) to see if they had an account under my name (other than the one I have had at the Credit Lyonnais since I moved to Paris...) Neither of them declared to have such an account... If you have any clues as to where to look please contact me... If you're info checks out, I will find a suitable way to reward you...
Just in case they may manage to fool the world, here is a list of my qualifications and physical attributes :
- I am trilingual in English, French and Swedish (writing skills in the latter are poor). I also speak some Spanish.
- I am a Caucasian Female, born in Tegucigalpa, HONDURAS of French Father: Jean-Claude Marcel Constant, born 9th of August 1939, Paris FRANCE, and Swedish mother: Aase Maria Smedler, born 16th of Febuary 1946, Vasa, SWEDEN. I have a younger brother whose name is Jan Olivier (Born 6th of July 1981, Bronx, NY, USA), and two half siblings: Jean-Marc and Johanne Constant (both older than me, from my father's first wedding, I have had very little contact with them, so do not know much about them.)
- My body measurements to this day are, height : 169 cm, waist : 65 cm, bust 89 cm, hips 89 cm, shoulders 100 cm, head 56 cm, feet 25 cm
- Natural hair color : light brown/dark blond (right now shaved)
- Eyes green-brown (beware I think my "replacement" may be using colored contacts or
Voodoo/Magic, otherwise, and I am quite sure of this, I believe my true color is pure green, they might only be partially brown because of Telepath pushing forward that part of his eye forward onto mine: the inner part of my iris.)
- I have all 4 wisdom teeth
- My Blood group is A+
- A scar on my knee from a skiing accident (cross tendents), there are still two remaining nails in my knee from the operation that took place in Copenhagen.
- I have scoliosis.
- A tattoo of an Ankh surrounded by the astrological symbol for Leo on the back of my hip to the right, it was done in spring 1998 at "East Street Tatoo" in Stockholm, SWEDEN.
- Cheek Dimples on each side. One lands right on a tiny mole.
- I have two moles side by side, one bigger than the other, in my right arm pit. And another tiny mole that lands right in the Fold of my right Arm...
- I have Myopia –2 in each eye. (Usually I wear contacts). (My Myopia developed when I was about 14, and I believe that it is actually caused by a Telepath who is permanently merging with me... Also, neither of my parents have Myopia).
- I have slight Dyslexia and slight ADD/Hyperactivity (I believe my Dyslexia is caused by A Telepath who has been merging with me from the beginning of my life, and that my slight Hyperactivity is caused my an intentional shaping of my skull, while I was still a baby, or like my Dyslexia, caused by the merging of a Hyperactive Telepath).
- I have 6 ear piercings: 4 in the left ear, 1 in the tragus, 2 in my right ear, I also have my navel pierced both my 2 Niples, the top of my Nose (bridge), and my Labrel (lower lip).
- I have a Tatoo of an ankh encircled by the Astrological Leo Symbol. I got it done when I was in high school just before my graduation in spring 1998, at the East Street Tatoo Parlor, in Stockholm Sweden. So it's a little faded and lost some of its sharpness, given that it is now almost 10 years old... But not that much given that it was done with a lot of ink and deep into the skin, so it's more that it's lost some of it's sharpness.
- I have followed a higher education in Interior Architecture, and Graphic Design. Graduated from high-school with a International Baccalaureate Diploma (total grade: 34) in English A1 (standard), French B (Higher), higher level Mathematics, Chemistry (standard), Economics (standard), Arts/Design (higher), Interior Architecture at Creapole-ESDI Paris, France (people from the schools I have gone to, are very likely to be involved in this conspiracy.)
- I also believe as you may already know from my previous post, that I can see the future (
NB: Only on hypnosis and concerning the future I see through MY existence).
- I have an extreme passion for my interest centers and/or skills, and I in no way would willingly give up practicing them. Especially if knowing the truth that has been hidden from me all these years ends up getting me depressed. I think working can be a very good catharsis for depression, but only after a good rest (not more than a few months, approximately three) Because all this waiting has been very nerve wrecking and frustrating…
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My IB3 1998 Graduation Year, Class Picture. I'm the one with the Bright Turquoise Top.
My IB3 1998 Graduation Year, Class Picture. I'm the one with the Bright Turquoise Top.
My IB3 1998 Graduation Year. Boarding Home (Skoga) Picture.
